crofs, that we could speak only a very few words to cach other. Having done my bufinefs, I returned by Helvoetfluys to Har wich, and fo to London. i 24. On April 15, 1779, I embarked again for Holland, and went through the fame places I did the laft year. And now I could converfe a little in the Dutch language. The first Children of God that I found, were in the city of Haerlem. They came to my fhop, and told me, The goods were pretty but I must take care, not to fet my heart upon them. I told them, My heart was in heaven, and that thefe pretty things were under my feet. One of them then invited me to his houfe, where I found a company affembled together. They received me with the utmoft courtefy, and afked, What Religion I was of? I anfwered, "Of that defcribed in the 13th of the first of Corinthians, from the fourth to the feventh verfe. Having read the words, they faid, "This is our Religion too we receive you as a Brother." They recommended me as fuch to all their acquaintance, fo that I was kindly received wherever I came. And I found juft the fame liberty of fpirit with thefe, as with my brethren in England. From this time, I found all over the country, perfons that knew and lived the Gofpel: and after spending fix months comfortably, among them, I cheerfully returned to my family. 25. I went again the next Spring, and was received with the fame kindness as before. And having more of the language, I found out more and more of the children of God. I rejoiced to find among these fome of the rich and great, who appeared to be as humble as the leaft of them. They were glad to hear, that there was a people in England that loved and ferved God. And fome of them had a great defire to fettle a correfpondence with their English brethren; which was foon after effected, and has continued ever fincé, to the no fmall comfort of both. 26. When 26. When I entered upon this trade, I had many difcouragements. Moft of my acquaintance either mocked or pitied me, faying, I was the most improper person in the world, to be concerned in fuch a bufinefs. had no money. I had indeed I had indeed very little. And befides I But I believed One God would bless that little. And he sent me help in time of need, fo that money came juft when it was wanted. time I was fhipping off a cheft of goods, but had not money to pay the duty. I told my Wife, I told my Wife, "God will provide." Prefently a Gentleman I never faw before, knocked at the door, and when he came in, told me, he wanted a parcel of goods, and would pay part of the money then. He did fo, and it was as much as I wanted, to pay the duty on my cheft. 27. It is now about fourteen years fince I began, according to my ability, to call finners to repentance. And I bless God, though I have had many difcouragements, I am not yet weary. I have not laboured in vain. God has given me to fee a little fruit of my labours. Bleffed be his Name, he ⚫ hath washed me from my fins; and I know he is able to keep me from falling, and to enable me to grow in grace, till he receives me into his glory. C. An Extract from the JOURNAL of Mr. G C 9. THE [Continued from page 301.] HE little knowledge I had of my own heart, made me think too highly of myself, till a few days after I felt anger in my heart, which I expected to feel no more. This gave me great pain, and alfo deprived me of my loving communion with Chrift. I was all confufion, not knowing where to go, or what to do. But I was foon drawn to prayer, and the Lord gave me again a lively fenfe of his forgiving love. Yet Yet from this time I found every day the evil of my nature, and began to feel what fin was! The Lord now began to uncover my heart, and to make me feel the finfulness of fin. But I was unwilling to bear it. I could think of nothing but love, and joy, and peace. These I fought in all the means of grace; yet I found but little of them. And once I brought myself under condemnation for three weeks, by drinking more than I needed. After this, I was doubly watchful. But the more I watched and prayed, the more I felt of my evil nature. And hence I was often under great perplexities, and much heaviness of fpirit. And now it became a fight indeed: but I often think God would not have bruifed me fo, had it not been for the enormous wickednefs of my preceding life. For fix and thirty years I had borne no restraint; I gratified every defire, and let loofe every paffion. I was now to be created anew in Christ Jesus. I was to fight against every inordinate affection, and every unholy defire. Now the .pain of refifting these, so as always to keep ourselves, is only known to them that feel it. But my merciful Lord never left me one hour to the power of Sin and Satan. Yet I fuf fered much from the world and the devil; but far more from my evil nature; from pride, paffion, self-will, bitterness, uncleannefs, and every fin the foul is capable of. 10. For the two firft years after I found peace with God, there was not a day (except in the first transport of joy) where I did not find doubt, and a fear of perishing at the last. I had but two with me, my mother, and my daughter; but thefe were enough to try fuch a spirit as mine. There was no natural affection between me and my mother: however we had no contention. I had much affection for my child, but the had a spirit as uncontrolable as my own. My trials from her were great; but when anger boiled in me, Jefus was my Saviour. But here was no communion of fpirit. My girl lived in all manner of pleasure, not regarding her reputation. My mother fancied herself juftified, though fhe was never convinced convinced of fin, and could not underftand a word I faid, of the work of God in the heart. Having none to speak to at home, I was glad to be acquainted with a pious friend, Mrs. Yarner, to whom I fpoke freely of my trials, and through whom I often received comfort. 11. After I had ftruggled two years with doubts and fears, it pleafed God to deliver me from them, enabling me to live a day at a time, and to take no thought for the morrow. From that time I found no anxious care, but could fteadily rely on God my Saviour. I now began to write down fome account of God's dealing with my foul; the review of which has often fince been a means of ftirring me up to prayer and thanksgiving. I now look back and fee the merciful hand of God, taking me out of my father's family, preferving me from being made a public example, and bearing with me, when I lived in all manner of abominations. And after a variety of fufferings, which he brought me through, giving me to hear and receive the truth in the power thereof. Wednesday, Feb. 1, 1749. I felt anger, but by prayer it was removed. Thurf. 2, My mind was difcompofed through unbelief, and my heart inclined to depart from God. Sunday 5, My heart humbly waited upon God, and found more power to give glory to him, in all my words and works, than I have done any day fince I was justified. Thursday 9. I felt unbelief, anxious care and peevishnefs. O how does my foul groan for liberty! Sometimes I figh, as though my heart would break; yet soon after, any vain thing will make me laugh. Monday 13, I felt heavinefs of fpirit from hearing men fwear. And yet I did not reprove them! O when fhall I be obedient to the Spirit? Tuesday 14, I fuffered much from my fellow-porters. I pray much for them; but fill find a root of bitternefs. Saturday 18, I again felt anger and peevishnefs, and my heart departing from God. Sunday 19, I found the prefence of the Lord, and a frong defire to love him with all my heart. W w VOL. V. Wednefd. Wednesday 22, My fpirit was fo trifling, I could have laughed at any thing; and yet my heart trembled for fear of fin. Thursday 23, This root of bitternefs preffed me fo, that I was not able to lift up my heart unto the Lord. Friday 24, I was troubled for the lofs of worldly goods, and could not wholly refign myself to God. Saturday 25, I felt fome temptation, with an unloving heart; and I never faw myself more helplefs. Sunday 26, I cannot find that fenfe of God my foul longs for: yet I thank him my foul does not cleave to the earth. Thursday 2, Wednesday, March 1. Praised be the Lord, who has refrefhed me with a strong fenfe of his pardoning love, and has given me to love and bear with my child. Being obliged by my business, to go to several taverns, and feeing the luxury and profaneness that there abounded, I blessed God who gave me more happiness in eating a few potatoes, than the epicures have in all their dainties. And when in prayer, I knew not how to rife from my knees, the love of God was fo flrong in me. Likewife on Sunday 5, I felt much love, and great confidence, that he would create in me a clean heart. Monday 6, My fpirits were much depreffed by fear; but in the evening it was removed. Sunday 12, I praifed God for delivering me from finful defires in the night, and bleffing me this day with peace and love. The following week I was much exercifed with the fear of falling, lightnefs of fpirit, lifelefsnefs in prayer: alfo with much pain of heart, on account of my child, fearing fhe would be ruined. I alfo felt my corrupt nature in fuch a manner, that I could hardly fpeak civilly to any one: and it was my unbelief and reafonings againft God, which gave it such power over me. Wednesday 22, I was much oppreft with blafphemous thoughts; alfo with pride and love of the world. Thursday 23. O my wretched heart! I had fallen this day into outward fin, had not the Lord reftrained me. Saturday 25, I found a little fpiritual life; and the cry of my heart was to |