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have done the same! How many worthless minds have possessed the same desperate courage! And what can wash away the blood in which I am going to imbrue my hands! Will my infamy be the less inscribed upon my tomb, if indeed I am allowed a tomb? And will my name, stigmatized by the laws, be buried with me? But what am I saying? Wretch that I am! I am thinking of the shame, but who is to expiate the guilt? I want to steal out of the world; but when I shall cease to exist, who will make restitution to those I have injured? Who will ask forgiveness for a young madman, the squanderer of wealth that was not his own? Ah, let me die, if I can no longer hope to regain that esteem which I have lost! But is it not possible, at my age, with labour and time, to repair the errors of my youth, and to obtain pardon for my misfortune ? Then reflecting upon the resources that were left me, if I had the fortitude to contend with my ill fate, I fancied I saw at a distance my honour emerging from behind the cloud that had obscured it. , I fancied I saw a plank placed at my feet to save me from shipwreck, and that I beheld a friendly port at hand ready to receive me. I retired into folland; but before I set off, I wrote to my creditors, informed them that having given up all I had left in the world, I was still going to devote my whole life to labour for their benefit; and entreated them to have patience. T he

"I landed at Amsterdam. On my arrival, my first care was to enquire who among the wealthy merchants of that city, was the man of the greatest character for honour and probity; and all agreeing in naming ODELMAN, I repaired

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“Sir," said I “a stranger persecuted by misfortune flies to you for refuge, and to ask you whether he must sink under its weight, or wlietlier by dint of resolution and labour, he may be able to overcome it? I have no one to

patronize “Being one day at dinner with Monsieur NERVIN, my notary, one of his guests, on hearing me speak of my journey into Holland, asked me, with some degree of ill humour and contempt, whether I had never happened to meet with one OLIVER SALVARY in that country. As it was easy to recognize in his looks a sentiment of malevolence, I stood on my guard, and answered, “that my tour into Holland having been a mere party of pleasure, I had not had leisure to acquire information respecting the French that I might have seen there, but that through my connections, it would be very possible to get some account of the person le had named.”—“ No,” said he, “it is not worth while. He has given me too much vexation already. He has possibly died of want or shame, as it was but fit he should. He would have done much better still, if he had died be fore he married my daughter, and brought himself to ruin. After that” continued he, “depend upon the fine promises which a young man makes you.—In eighteen months, fifty thousand crowns in debt; and, to complete the whole exile, and disgrace!” “Ah! Sir,” said he to the notars, $ when you marry your daughter, be upon your guard. An insolvent and disgraced son-in-law is but a sorry piece of furniture." 3"Monsieur NERVIN asked him how it had happened, that so prudent a man as he had not foreseen and prevented these misfortunes ? “I did foresee them," replied D’AMENE, “and prevented them as far as I could ; for the very day after my daughter's death, I took my measures, and, thank heaven, I have had the consolation of recovering her portion and personal property ; but that is all I was able to save from the wreck, and I left nothing but the shattered remains for the rest of the creditors."

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" It was with great difficulty that I could contain myself; but perceiving, after he was gone, the impression de

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