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you—until he does, you can still reside you an unbecoming rudeness. Before with Mr Percival. If you love me, you leave us, may I hope that I am Frederick, and value my peace of forgiven ?" mind, you will put an end to violence He spoke in a sweet voice, and un. and tumult. I am worn out with them. hesitatingly, as one used to talk--con. Think not of heaping up the load offidently and well. I did not under: infamy and disgrace that has already stand him, and I blushed more deeply buried our good name beneath its foul than ever. deformity; no good will come of that, • Do not think ill of me," he contito you, to him, to any of us, Level nued, “ because you found me where, it, if you can, with llie earth, and let in truth, my tastes would never have its existence be forgotten amongst seduced me. Your brother has no men."
doubt told you why and how I came I repeated my entreaties, and I sub- there?" He stopped for my reply. dued and cooled his heated temper. I “ Do you mean the invi, sir :" I received his faithful promise. He be- asked, in ignorance of his drift. lieved that I was right, and that it “ Yes," he answered, with a faint was useless to avenge what never could smile. “ Yes, Miss Harrington, if you be repaired. He would not seek to will condescend to honour it by that do it. He would revisit home, as I title. He has told you-has he not?" had requested him, upon the day of
We did not speak, sir, on the funeral. If i father was indeed the subject. Do you come from him as I had described him, he would be now? Have you brought a letter silent with respect to his former con- from him? Has he sent a message? duct, and no syllable from his lips He has not changed bis mind, I hope ? ' should disturb the welcome and much- “ Certainly not," was the reply. envied harmony. If it should be “ Miss Harrington," continued Mr otherwise, he would absent himself at Temple, “ your brother is my dearest once, and await at school the determi. friend. I have known him for years ; nation of his parent with regard to his I love him as a brother.” future prospects. With this under- The young man spoke with fervour, standing we separated — my brother and my heart warmed towards him as returned to the school, I remained at he said the words. the inn, from which the coach set out “ He is worthy, sir," said I, “ of that evening that was to convey me to your affection. He has a noble heart. my home again.
He hud," I continued, checking myLeft to myself, I remembered that I self; “and I pray to God it may conhad made no enquiry respecting the tinue so." employment which had called him to · Yes, Miss Harrington,"continued the public-house. I had not spoken the gentleman in a musing tone, “he to him, either, of his companion, who had; and let us hope he has. I risk had left him as he caught sight of me. much on his account. I desired eagerly to be informed of pose that for one in whom I took a these. In my heart I believed that no common interest, I could perform so good had drawn him to the hut, and a much. For him, and him alone, do I corresponding sentiment was enter- venture to such haunts as that in tained in respect of his friend and as- which Miss Harrington surprised us sociate. I had scarcely permitted my- both this morning. If I retreated self to form the latter opinion, before hastily, and quicker than good mana gentle knock at the door of the room ners would permit, it was to spare an in which I sat, introduced to my pro explanation that would have pained sence the very gentleman himself. us all to hear." He entered the apartment with a very “I beg your pardon, sir," said I; modest demeanour, and bowed pro- “ I do not quite understand." foundly; then, somewhat confused, he “ It would be useless to disguise the enquired if he had the happiness of fact,” he said, interrupting me. "Your addressing Miss Emma Harrington ? brother has been in danger. He has Colouring highly, I answered in the been surrounded by companions who affirmative.
have led him into dissipation. He is “ I have considered it my duty, Miss safe now.
I have never deserted Harrington,” he proceeded,
him. I never will desert him. I have logize for what must have appeared to injured my own character by follow
Do not sup
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ing him throughout his career of whom we see--and this is true religion. folly. I am satisfied to be spoken ill How the heart overflows with adora. of, whilst I know that I have done my tion on a bright sunny day, on any duty. Should you hear your brother's spot of earth that is glowing with the friend, James Temple, mentioned with variegated charms of the voluptuous disrespect, you will know the reason goddess! How free and generouswhy."
how prodigal she is of all her gifts, I was still at a loss to gather the giving alike to the rich and the poor, exact meaning of Mr Temple's words. and preaching, with a voice as loud and I begged him to be explicit.
expressive as her own thunders, the “ A few words, Miss Harrington," doctrine of a universal love !" he returned, " will explain as much as " But, what is all this, sir, to the you desire to hear. The whole is, in poor sufferer?” said I, stopping him. truth, very little; but I wish you to do Sunny days bring little warmth to me justice. Pardon me if I say that the bare heart of the orphan.” injustice never accompanied beauty so Mr Temple ventured to contest the perfect as your own. Frederick has point, and continued to panegyrize in been tempted to the wine-cup and the the loftiest terms the principle which, gaming-table.”
he contended, existed, and governed “ You do not mean it!” I exclaim- throughout the whole visible world. ed, starting with affright, and dread- It was a strange theory, and new to ing to hear more.
I could not realize it, nor adapt “ He has been tempted, and with it to my own preconceived notions of drawn from them," he added, in a the everlasting Deity. Of the latter, louder voice. “ I have watched him in the affairs of this world, he seemed daily and hourly. I have seen him to take no account. He ended and gradually falling beneath the wiles of began with Nature. All things were wicked and designing men. I have wrought by and through her, and we interfered to snatch him from the had only to submit to and obey her trap. I have succeeded, and am laws. There was a mystery about all happy:
he said; but he spoke with eloquence, “ Then, indeed, we owe you much, and with a fervour that animated his sir. We are grateful for the act." countenance, and gave brilliancy to
“I am more than overpaid to hear an eye that shone with the fire and it from your lips. Do you return to impetuosity of unsophisticated youth. so soon ?he asked.
I was struck and pleased with his 6. Within an hour, sir," I answer- earnestness; and oh, how much did I ed. “You know my place of resi. regard him for his kindness towards dence ?"
my unfriended and neglected brother ! your brother's nearest It is very true, that here and there, in friend. I know your melancholy bis- the vehemence of his argument, tory. Although far from you, I have was startled and unsettled by propoever had a lively interest in your wel. sitions which my native sense of fare. Need I say that it is increased truth at once rejected as unsound a hundred-fold by this delightful in- and perilous; but his expression of the terview ? Frederick and I have passed heresy did not give rise to anger, nor hours in bewailing your unhappy permit me to think unfavourably of fate. Better days await you.” the speaker. I could not, at that dis
“ Yes," I answered; “I do believe tance from the moving springs that it.”
worked within his crafty and inhuman “ Nature," continued Mr Temple, heart, discover the motive and design « is kind. If she wounds-she heals. of every word that fell, poisonous and We do not always suffer."
sweet, upon my ears. What if his “God is kind," I answered, “and theory were dangerous and false, I often kindest where he seems most believed his soul was pure, and flatcruel.”
tered my imagination with the thought " True," said Mr Temple. “ Na- that I could see it beaming in his face. ture is but another word for the same Hence, although he enforced the docidea. It is something more tangible.' trine of personal unrestraint, and “ What is that?" I asked.
argued that the indulgence of what « Oh-closer to the senses easier are deemed unlawful wishes, is sinful to conceive, We worship nature only when unnatural, and in opposi.
16 I am
tion to the benevolent laws of nature; o'clock, and he promised to meet his and further than this, pursued the father at the breakfast-table. I did theme, and drew the ready inference, not sleep that night. How could I? that all are justified who obey the dic- I walked restlessly about my room, tates of the passions; I did not ex- longing for the morning to come, press my indignation at the insidious dreading its approach, and growing and demoniac lore, and strike the more and more anxious and alarmed tempter dumb upon the very thres- as the clock warned me at intervals of hold of his scheme. I have but feebly its advance. At six o'clock I rose. portrayed my first interview with the Another sleeper in the house had been destroyer. I do not hope to convey disturbed before me, and was already to you the full impression of that short moving. This was my father. I found conference. I do not desire it. I him in his library. He looked pale have dwelt through many a weary and wearied, and his usual tremor unhour upon this introduction into mi- hinged his whole frame. When I sery and guilt-for such it proved to opened the door of the apartment, he be—and I have found, the deeper I started from his seat, and was frighthave pierced, the carefully strewed ened. seed of all the aftergrowth of crime. « Ah-yes," said he, recovering I ask you to explain the reason why himself, “it is you; be seated, Emma. the unprotected and the orphan are He has come, of course ?" the chosen victims of your fellow-men? “ He has," I answered. Why are they so greedily pursued, so “ Well—and he is well-disposed, is cruelly deprived of that small share of tranquil, as he should be on the sad happiness that belongs to their condi- occasion ?" tion? James Temple knew me to be “ He has said little," I replied. the most unfortunate of my sex, the “ He has not yet risen. It was late most deserving of his pity and respect. last night when he reached home." He saw me for a moment, and resolved « Well, I shall see him soon. Does upon my ruin. His first well.calcu. he return to-morrow?" lated step I have described.
« It is his intention." season the second was delayed.
• Good. He will be soon provided The morning for my mother's fue for. I have obtained for him an apneral arrived. Stukely, my pen fale pointment in India. Tell him go. It ters, and refuses to trace the narrative is better that he should pass the little which it sickens me to recall. And yet time that he will remain in England it must be told. I have brought you
away from home. It may save a to the climax of human wretchedness. breach. I cannot brook contradiction, Read and believe. I tell you that the I do not wish to gall and irritate him. strange tale is true-horrible it may He is over-hasty, I have heard. But be, it is—and yet I have survived it. he seems peaceable, and disposed to Who doubts its authenticity? Let him keep so, I think you said ?” carry it to the drunkard's habitation, Early as it was, the wine bottle was and call around him first the miserable already on the table. wife, and then the sobbing children, “ Father,” said I, pointing to it, and let him astound their ears with or what is that?" the history that is their own. Oh, “ Not another drop," he exclaimed think not for an instant that exagger- impressively; “not a sup, as I am a ation deforms the unsightly picture. living man. I should have shaken to The ugliness surpasses not the truth. pieces had I not appeased the nerves Would that both could strike the con- with one draught. But I have swalscience of one domestic murderer with lowed it, and I am quiet. I shall taste effectual sorrow and remorse. The no more; take it away." At the very morning of the funeral had come. moment that he made this request, and Ten o'clock had struck, and my bro- as I approached the table to comply ther had not yet appeared. He had with it, he raised the decanter mechaarrived from the school late on the nically, and poured from its contents preceding evening, and had retired another glassful. Without a word or immediately to rest. I had received a sign, and as if unconscious of the act, him, for my father had gone to his he drank it off. To such an extent bed some hours before. I told him was he the slave of habit, tbat I am that our breakfast hour was nine satisfied he was ignorant of having
transgressed the rule which he had -"tell me, Emma-did I not obey laid down for himself the very second her?" before.
“ You did," I answered. “ Father," I exclaimed, “ for hea- never disobeyed her.” ven's sake be cautious! Who shall " But did I not offer a hundred answer for the effects of a single dram? times to come to her rescue ? Did she Cease to be master of yourself, and I not forbid it!" foresee the consequences,
As sure as “ You have done your duty, FreI am speaking, there will be mischief derick. She was satisfied you had.". that never can be forgotten or repaired. “If I thought otherwise, I could Be warned in time, and avoid to-night not live another hour. I am sure she the furions insensibility, from which was wrong; but I do not reproach you will wake to-morrow to imprecate myself for a strict compliance with yourself, and loathe the very light in her wishes." which you walk. For your own sake “She is in heaven," I rejoined, be advised, and fee, for this one day" and smiles upon you for your filial at least, from the horrible temptation. love."
“ Oh, trust me!" answered my fa- " Where is he?" he asked, turning ther, made uneasy by the terms in from the subject.
"I have not met wbich I had ventured to address him, him yet." “trust me I will be wise. Here “ He has expected you for the last take the key of the cellar. Let one hour or two. Come to him. He de. bottle of wine remain for dinner. sires to see you.” Produce no more. If I ask for more, “ No—not at present. I shall wait refuse it. You have me in your keep- here until the ceremony compels me ing. It is for you to prevent the mis- to endure his sight. We are better chief that you dread.”
and safer asunder. We will follow I secured the key with eagerness, her to the grave in company.
That and taking him at his word, placed is all he can require of me: beyond his reach every means of gra- happier alone. I could not talk with tifying the insatiable lust. Break- him." fast was announced, and Frederick “ You will do nothing harsh and still was absent. I could not eat. cruel, will you?” I asked, imploringly. Food had never been acceptable to “ No good can come of it. I will my father so early in the day. We not give you pain unnecessarily, dear sat in silence, and the cloth was re- Einma. Death is no punishment to moved untouched by either of us. such a man. Torture for years, such Shortly afterwards, a rustling and as he inflicted, he deserves. It can. a moving about were heard directly not bring her to life again. Would overhead, and subdued talking on the that it might !” stairs. A chill shot through me. The I had many things to do on this men bad come to prepare the body eventful morning, and ļ was obliged for its last short journey. I wept, and to leave my brother sooner than I my father sat over the fire, looking wished. My anxiety prompted me iuro it, and thinking, it may be, on the to be continually at his 'side ; for, in eternity into which he had hurried the spite of his assurances, I had little uncomplaining sufferer.
confidence in his power of forbeareternity for him!-I left bis presence,
I knew that an angry word or and stole to the busiest chamber in louk could overthrow a mountain of the house, desirous of another leave. good resolutions, and render him as takiny. The coffia was already closed. helpless as an infant in the hold, and One person only was in the room, and at the mercy, of his excited and unfas. that was poor Frederick, weeping at tened passions. I was aware, too, the coffin's foot, with the uncontrol- from many observations that had lable fulness of a heart-broken child. fallen from him, that his code of mo. I walked to his side, and placed my rality was lax, and justified to his hand in hiz. He closed me in his mind acts that were criminal in them. arms, and we had not a word to say, selves, and in the judgment of the until the heart had wrung its last tear world. His religious views had bethrough his drowned and quivering come fearfully dimmed, and he veeded eye.
only the stimulus and the opportunity • Did I not,” he said at length, to become the sport and prey of notions
that lead only to destệuction. On tale. No sooner had I lost sight of these accounts, I trembled for him, the mournful retinue, thạn, overborne and begrudyed every moment that I by an impulse of love, I fell upon passed away from him. Ill. fortified my knees, and implored God to give he was to be alone in any place. comfort and repose to her whom Ho Here, where he walked in the midst had taken to himself. I did not rise of danger and evil solicitation, he until sweet assurance calmed my spineeded a hand ever present to guide rit, and gave it boundless confidence him, and to warn bim of the mine and hope. I desire no arguments to that one inconsiderate step would set prove my fabric an unsubstantial and thundering beneath his very feet.
aerial vision. The wise may smi at At eleven o'clock, the small proces. my credulity, or pity the ungrounded sion that constituted the ceremony of heresy. Reason, stern teacher as she my mother's humble funeral was is, must never take from me the hold marshalled, and ready to proceed. that Feeling gives me on yon invisiMy father and I were in the library, ble world of beatitic spirits, linking me and waited for my brother. I heard in deep, ineffable communion with the his footstep on the stairs, and my heart loved of old, and sustaining me with beat painfully and quick. He de- intercourse that knows no break--that scended slowly, and did not appear to
has no cloud. delay or pause. In another moment It takes but a little time to separate he entered. I looked at my father, for ever the living from the dead, to and he winced under the hard trial. place the latter in the cold, cold earth, He looked upeasily about him-cast and to render them, as though they his eyes upon the ground—towards had never been, objects for the memory, me-io the attendants—anywhere but subjects intangible but by the unthere where fear, shame, and acute bounded never-dying mind. The last vexation, all commingled, rendered office was performed, and father and one ohjectintolerable to the sight. Fre- brother were once more in the house derick was very pale, but he looked together. I know not what had passed subdued and placid.
Perfectly col- between them during their short ablected, and in a distant manner, he
Certain it is they had spoken. bowed to his father, and the latter re- The partition that had previously seturned his greeting with a silent re
parated th was broken down, and cognition, that betrayed at once the communication, if not of the most agitation of his mind, and the small friendly character, was, at least, unability that he possessed to check and reserved. In spite of the evident athide the goawing agony that seared tempts made by my father to appear bis sinful soul. There was no warmer ease, awkwardness and anxiety salutation. Not a word was spoken. were manifest in every word and The silence of death prevailed in the movement. Once having addressed room, far more crushing, because in- Frederick, he could not remain for consonant with the occasion, unțil my an instant silent, but turned from one father was reminded that it was time subject of discourse to another, reto go forward. I saw them depart-1 garuless of connexion or relation, as if marked them, when they followed side silence were impossible to bear, and by side the remains of the deceased the least repose brought with it peril through the long avenue that led to and alarm. Frederick, on bis part, the churchyard. Sull not a word was was taken by surprise, and by degrees exchanged. A hanukerchief was in regarded his parent with a kivulier the hand of my father-the mourner's spirit than I had ever ventured to exensign! Frederick was overcome, and pect from the impassioned boy. He wept aloud and violently; his sobs listened to his father's questionings, and moans were carried through the and he answered with respect. A ray air, and conveyed to my own distressed of joy stole across my heart, and, for .and heaving heart. I closed the case- the moment, I flattered myself with ment, and escaped them. I was alone. years of unmolested happiness-of I knew not that it was a useless prayer harmony and peace, Not a word was that nature prompted me to offer up said of the sad occasion that brought for the safety and welfare of the be. us again together. That was avoided loved's soul. Had I been told so, I studionsly. But Frederick's fuțure would not have believed the chilling prospects were spoken of, and the na