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been a design to ruin the king, and the nation. The old game has been renewed, and this has been the main incendiary. He is as modest now, as he can be; but the time was, when no man was so ready 2.1—bind your kings in chains, and your nobles in fetters of iron—and—to your tents O Israel. Gentlemen, for God's fake, don't let us be gulled twice in an age," &c. In the conclusion of "his speech, he told the jury, " that if they, in their consciences, believed he (Baxter) meant the bishops and clergy of the church of England, in the passages which the information referred to, they Must find him Guilty, and he could mean no man else. If not, they must find him Not guilty." When the chief justice had ended, his speech, Mr. Baxter said,

"Does your lordship think any jus will pretend to pass a verdict upon such a trial?"—"I'll warrant you, Mr. Baxter, replied his lordship, don't you trouble yourself about that." And the jury immediately, without going from the bar, found him Guilty !As he was going from the bar, Mr. Baxter told the chief justice, in answer to the reproaches he had loaded him with, " that a predecessor of his had other thoughts of him." To which he replied, " That there was not an honest man in England but what took him for a great knave."— The defendant had subpeened several clergymen, who appeared in court, but could be of no use, on account of the violence and arbitrariness of the

chief justice. Such was the lord

chief justice Jefperies!

The Fatal Indifference: or, The Interesting History of Mrs. Matilda Markham* Published from her own Manuscript,

IWas the only daughter of a gentleman, who held an employment that amounted to 5001. a year; yet though this employment was his principal dependance, and though he was always under a necessity of appearing rather elegantly in the world, still no care was omitted to give his favourite Matilda a finished education. I was therefore instructed at an early period in French and Italian, was taught all the fashionable needle-works that keep a young woman regularly employed, without answering any one purpose of real utility; and made such a mistress of the harpsichord before I attained my fourteenth year, that I was considered by the connoisseurs on this instrument, as a kind of musical miracle: add to all these accomplishments, that I fung with some voice and much taste, danced with remarkable grace, and possessed a person which was the incessant object <qf general adulation.

Ib giving this picture of myself, I shall not be suspected of vanity, because at the very period I am speaking of, I was much more intitled to pity than praise; my education had been elegant, but no way useful, and it rather served to increase my pride, than to enlarge my understanding.—: Instead of teaching me to be chearful, humble, and obliging, it rendered me sullen, froward, and capricious, and therefore, instead of modestly endeavouring to obtain the esteem of those with whom I conversed, I laid an insolent claim Jo their admiration. My P00r father, who imagined the world beheld me with the eyes of his own partiality, rather encouraged, than discountenanced the extraordinary value which I set upon my own accomplishments, and neglected the cultivation of my mind, though he hourly sacrificed to my vanity. He fancied that thej knowledge of a language or two,

would, .. • The interesting History of

Vould necessarily give me good sense, and believed the turn of my disposition must be right, because I sung prettily, and made a figure at my harpsichord. Alas! how severely has experience convinced me, that a lingle scruple of discretion, outweighs all the benefits to be reaped from the French or the Italian: and how heartily do I wish that the hours which have been so prodigally lavished in the attainment of mere embellishments, had been wisely employed in the less fashionable studies of regulating a family.

, Wishes, however, will not, to use the forcible language of a modern writer,

Roll back the flood of never ebbing time, and therefore, from useless exclamation, I shall proceed with the simple narration of facts.—Notwithstanding my boundless vanity, and notwithstanding the well-known flenderness of my father's circumstances, I had several advantageous matches proposed to me before I reached my eighteenth year ; but these were in general disregarded, both because no impression had been made upon my heart, and because I fancied my wonderful merit would at any time procure me a husband with an affluent fortune. At length Mr- Markham, who had acquired a prodigious fortune during the late war, making pvertures, my father thought it prudent to consent, and as I had no objection whatever to Mr, Markham's fortune or manner, we were married in a few weeks, and I found myself mistress of a magnificent house in the neighbourhood of Merrion-square.

Being thus happily settled, and indulged with every wish of my heart by Mr. Markham, my pride soon broke out into the most excessive extravagance, and I grew wholly indifferent to every enjoyment but my rage for admiration. In vain my Jjusband exerted every argument of

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tenderness, and every act of generosity, to shew me the folly, nay, the danger, of my pursuit. His remonstrances I construed into insolence, and imagined he was sufficiently happy in the posseJiion of so invaluable a treasure as myself, without putting a disagreeable restraint upon my inclinations. The truth was, he had married me from a principle of affection, and I had given him my hand entirely from motives of vanity. He expected to have his passion returned with transport, and I looked for a continued round of glitter and dissipation. He pined to have me more at home, and I sickened for every fashionable amusement. The consequence at last was, that he became gloomy in proportion as I grew in* different, and this gloominess appearing, in my conception of things, very ungrateful, I determined to punish it as much as possible, by en* gaging myself abroad in an endless round of pleasure, and by making little more than a sleeping place of his house.

In this manner matters continued almost two years, during which time we had two children; but the maternal duties were much too vulgar for a woman of my superior accomplishments, therefore I did not honour home the more with my presence on account of this increase of my family. Notwithstanding my continual en-< gagements abroad, however, I was about this time informed of a circumstance which extremely mortified my vanity—and this was, thatMn Markham and my woman, who was a very likely girl, had frequent meetings at ,a milliner's, in one of the bye-streets of our neighbourhood. Though I never felt any tenderness for Mr. Markham, this intelligence gave my pride a very sensible mortification: However indifferent I might be about him, there was no supporting the idea of his infidelity to me; I could

bear bear to see him miserable by my negligence, but it was intolerable to think of his being attached to any body else—it was treason against the majesty of my merit, and I determined in a fatal hour to be amply revenged on the criminal. O ye daughters of reputation, beware of exerting a false resentment, even where the perfidy os your husband may be evident. Let not his errors lead you into actual crimes, nor madly make a sacrifice of your own happiness, and your own character, thro' a ridiculous notion of retaliating your wrongs—you can suffer no distress that will equal a fall into infamy. The affliction of the innocent is an Elysium compared to the aDguifh of the guilty, and the stroke of calajnity is always keen in proportion to the tonsciouiness of having deserved ir. Had I prudently considered this, while the consideration could have been useful, my bloom of life would not be chilled by the blasts of shame, not had the storm of reproach rooted vp all the flattering prospect of my future felicity—the sunshine of tranquillity would have smiled upon my morning, and my evening would lave been wholly unimbittered with tears. But, alas! I must resent where I ought to reconcile, and instead of recovering my husband's affection, I must excite his detestation. It is unnecessary to explain myself farther. 'Tis needless to tell you, that there are men enough to flatter a woman who has youth and a passable person, especially where she is a slave to dissipation. This was unhappily my cafe; and in the rash, the wretched moment of my indignation at Mr. Markham's infidelity, some demon rendered a professed admirer of mine so very importunate, that I listened to him from motives of revenge, and yielding to his solicitation on purpose to punish my husband, was utterly undone. .- •

The inconsiderate, the unpardorr* able step I had taken, was not lungs concealed, nor did it ever strike me, till it was published, that without making my infamy universally known i I could enjoy no triumph over poor Mr. Markham. It was, however, no sooner known, which was in a few days, through the vanity of my paramour, than I was overwhelmed not only with disgrace, but with remorse —and discovered that my resentment against my unfortunate husband was as unjustly founded, as the fatal indifference which originally gave birth to my crime. Mr. Markham, indeed, had frequent meetings with my woman at the. milliner's I have mentioned; but these meetings were perfectly innocent, nay, they were perfectly laudable ; the round of amusements in which I was constantly engaged, and the avidity with which* I listened to every coxcomb that offered up incense at the shrine of my vanity, had for a long time silled him with doubts of my honour,: and ha naturally enough imagined, that she* who disdained to preserve the appearance of reputation, would entertain but little regard for the reality. Actuated by a belief of this nature, and supposing that my weman must necessarily be my confidant, in case of any illicit correspondence, he had) frequently appointments with her at the milliner's, not chusing, for fear of suspicion, to converse with her prii vately in his own house. Thus the very measures he took to save me from ruin became material causes of my destruction; and thus, by the preposterous pride of a wretch, who was wholly unworthy of him, the happiness of his family was eternally blasted, while he earnestly laboured for its restoration.' • - -y

Had the unhappy consequences, however, terminated here, I think it would have been possible for a life of penitence to give me some distant

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Mea os comfort, and the disgrace to planted daggers in the1" bosom of their which I am justly cast out, might be unfortunate father."~Saying this, he considered as a kind of expiation for hurried out, while I fainted in the my crime—but, alas! the guilt or arms of my woman, and I remained, infidelity was to be attended with so wholly senseless for several hours, blood, and Mr. Markham was not that my recovery was entirely deonly to be ruined in his peace, but spaired of.

my father:—Oh, Sir, the recollec- On recovering the use of my senses, tion, the bare recollection of the mi- O what a .misfortune is the power of series which my infamy has produced, recollection to the wretched! I was almost drives me into madness; and removed in obedience to Mr. MarkI am astonished that the laws do not ham's positive order, to my father's, cut off such monlters as myself from Here,instead of receiving consolation,

the face of society Mighty God, I was to look for the keenest of all

look down upon me with an eye of reproach ; but, contrary to my expeccompaision—these tears are not the rations, the voice that hailed me was tears of disappointed pride; nor are the voice cf pity, and the veHerablc these tresses now torn from my miser- author of my being was almost in the able head, because my vanity is no agonies of death, as they led me longer to be indulged. No, the an- trembling to his apartment.—He had guifh of my soul is now the genuine been for a long time confined by the result of contrition; and I will hope gout, and this unlooked-for calamity for pardon in the future world, tho' throwing it instantly into his stomach I neither can look for tranquillity or beyond the power of medicine, he forgiveness in this—but to go on. lay patiently waiting for the moment -...The instant that my perfidy reach- of dissolution. On my entrance, he ed Mr. Markham's ears, he. flew was raised up in his bed, where he to me, {I was then in my dressing- held forth his trembling hands, and room) and in a tone of the utmost de- with some difficulty articulated, "Q (pairexclaimed, " O Matilda! what Matilda, forgive you»dying father— have I done to deserve this ?—Was it it was my mistaken manner of ednnot enough to destroy my repose, cation that has ruined my unhappy without murdering my reputation; child."—He could utter no more—or if you had no regard for my ho- his pangs came on him too fast, and nour, why were you lost to all pity he expired before they could convey foryour helpless innocents? They have me from the dreadful scene to another never offended, though I may have room.—Here I was seized with a viounhappily displeased, and they were lent fever, and lay delirious several entitled to some little compassion, days,—When the violence of my disthough no pity whatsoever might be order was abated—I enquired—Ivendue to me:—but, madam, continued tured to enqnire, after Mr. Markhe, raising his voice into a fierceness ham-and my poor children—the acthat petrified me, tho' you have counts I received were flattering, and made me wretched, you shall not greatly forwarded my recovery—but make me contemptible—this moment my health was no sooner re-establifhyou must quit my house, nor shall you ed, than I found these accounts to be enter my habitation more—the un- entirely the pious frauds of friendhappy little ones will be carefully at- ship, and calculated only to hasten tended to, but they shall be taught my amendment,—-The truth was, Mr. to forget every trace of a mother who Markham had been obliged to fly for has covered them with infamy, and killing the wretched partner of my

guilt. duel, and he took the security,—she must not dare to In

guilt, in a

two children along with him—where he had taken refuge nobody could tell mef nor have I to this hour discovered the place fif his retreat:— his house, his estates, his property in the funds, were all converted into money; and once a year I receive a cover containing a note for two hundred pounds—it comes from his appointment I am well convinced, but there is no possibility of tracing him, though it is now seven years since he justly spurned me from his protection.—O that he knew the anguish of my heart, or heard that my time is wholly passed in solitude and tears.

dulge the hope of ever seeing your highly-injured father—that happiness she has eternally forfeited—could she, however, clasp you for a moment, a single moment to her agonizing bosom, she would.—O Mr. Markham, if this paper should happily fall into your hands, bestow one charitable thought upon a creature now humbled in the dust, and bleeding with the deepest contrition for her crime.— As a wife ihe does not presume to mention herself—nor means to address your tenderness, but to implore your humanity—have pity on her, therefore, dear Sir,—"only fay that

O that he would bless me with one you are well yourself, and that your look at my poor children !—'Tis true children are in safety, and, if the

prayers of such a monster to the throne of mercy can be any way efficacious, the little remnant of her unfortunate life shall be employed in supplicating that happiness for you and yours, both here and hereafter, which she can never enjoy in this world, and which, without your forgiveness, she may possibly forfeit in the next.

Matilda Markham.

their mother is a scandal to them, and the mention os her name must tinge their young cheeks with an instant glow of indignation-—-but my sweet babes—my lovely little ones, though your mother is an outcast— though she is a wretch, she feels for you with the keenest sensibility, and would sacrifice her life with joy to be convinced that you are in health aud

A Description os the curious Boat lately brought from India, and presented t* their Majesties by Governor Vanftttart. With a Copper-plate annexed.

THIS magnificent boat is called a Mohr Punkee, or PeacockBoat, from its resemblance to a peacock, having at its prow the figure of that bird, the tail of which is prolonged the whole length of the boat, the plumage on each side being most beautifully painted and varnished. The length is about eighty feet; and the extreme breadth, which is towards the front, is nine feet, from whence it gradually diminishes to the stern, which is terminated by the grotesque or imaginary figure of a fish's head, richly gilt, considered in India as an ensign of royalty, and permitted to be borne only by per

sons of the highest distinction. Over the broadest part of the boat is erected a pavilion, the canopy of which is six feet high, and covered with crimson velvet, very richly embroidered with gold, as are likewise the curtains which hang from it on every side, the whole being supported' by several varnished pillars, the bottom of which is surrounded by a small rail: a narrow balcony hanging over the sides of the boat, serves as a receptacle for confectionary, fruit, sherbet, or other refreshments on the passage. The floor of the pavilion is covered with scarlet cloth, upon which are several crimson velvet

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